Susie Homemaker

When did I turn into Susie Homemaker?

Recently, I decided that we (my boyfriend and I) should eat at home more often. It's better for us and we can put our money to better use than eating out. So, I've started cooking. It's simple stuff, really, but I feel good about not eating in restaurants so much, and actually, I've liked cooking. Not that I love the cooking itself, but the whole process. My boyfriend putsing around the living room, me in the kitchen, him coming into the kitchen to give me kisses, listening to music, BSing about our day, etc. The whole thing.

It's weird. I mean, on the professional side, I work in a male-dominated field. I handle myself like an adult and go head to head with the "old boys" on a regular basis. I cut big deals, I bring in lots of revenue. On the personal side, I like to have sex. I've hurt more guys than have ever been hurt because I treated sex casually. I expect to be considered my boyfriend's equal and have no problem out earning him. 

Yet, there I am. Packing him a lunch in the mornings. Cooking dinner at night. Yes, he does the dishes and always says thank you. He always tells me how good I am for him and how I motivate and inspire him. So, despite the fact that I am a fully capable woman who is self supporting, I've still turned into my mother.

My mother is a neat lady. She's super smart and she did a good job raising us. We all went to college because she motivated us and pushed us. She helped my father start his own business. And she cooked dinner and made lunches for us, even to today, when 2/3 of her kids are out of the house. I can see my mother in me when I'm cutting the cheese perfectly for the sandwiches and spreading the mustard & mayo evenly. I can see her when I'm mixing the sauces and stirring the noodles, and I can't help, but wonder.

When did I turn into Susie Homemaker?