Do you ever think about continuing to drive and never stopping?
Sometimes, especially on nights like tonight, I just want to drive until I leave my life behind me. I know I will never do it, but sometimes I wish I could. I get this sensation that my life is a burden that is crushing me and I don't know how to escape the feeling. I feel like I'm oppressed by my own choices and I don't know how to change them. I wish I could say "screw it all!" and not care about anyone but myself, but of course I can't do that.
Who does that? Terrible people. I've got enough moral ambiguity in my life that I don't need to add "family abandoner" to the top of that list. And really, do I want to RUN AWAY from my life? No, not really. But I do wish that I knew what it was about driving along on a dark highway that makes me want to keep going until I don't know who I am anymore.
